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Thursday, March 14th, 2013
4:53 am
I've been rather busy lately, and haven't been back here much.
I looked through some of my old entries, haha... I'm definitely the only one, I hope.
But for anyone that ever stopped by, I just wanted to put a few words down. In case anyone was ever curious what became of me after those years of dropping out and breaking down and running my head into walls over my problems, rather than just getting over them.

I'm in London now, I have been for about 2 1/2 months. I'm doing a semester abroad, finally, in my senior year. I'll be here for another few months, then I'll head home again. But I can't imagine not coming back as soon as I can; I don't want to leave as it is. I'm doing an internship with a charity involved in history and education-- I still think I'll most likely go into the military, but it doesn't hurt to set myself up for education just in case. Though I don't think I'll go to grad school; I'm definitely done with school after this, I can't stand to do any more, haha.

But it's occurred to me, that here I am. I made it to Europe. I've been around a bit, travelling with London as a base... I try not to go away every weekend-- it's an insult to the city --but while I was sitting in a cafe in Amsterdam, and again, on a train to Vienna, it hit me: I've made it.

Three years ago, sitting on the hospital bed in the little room they made up for me, where they wouldn't let us have our belts or our headphones or to close our doors, I remember looking at the ceiling and thinking this is it. This was the life I had, and this is what I had done to it. I had ruined it. But here I am, still not even graduated yet, and I am somewhere incredible. This is it.

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